Wednesday, April 16, 2008

I is for I-N-T-E-R-V-I-E-W

it was friday. I got the letter.
it was saturday. I went to Sab's house to use internet. Obtained information. resolved to read the info at night. but fell asleep.
it was sunday. went to Sab's house again. resolved to read the info at night. but fell asleep.
it was monday. I freaked out.

head = zero information
the borang = not even a box filled
the stupid essay = not a single word

relax, after all, i'm a world-class procrastinator (do not try this at home). i know exactly what to do.

right?

first, the essay. a truly vital thing. OK. no probs. switch on yiyi, my third bro's laptop (oh. by the way. yiyi is my brother's name. not the laptop's). Darn. The laptop had lancaring a mogok.

Never mind. I cud use my sec bro, Imie's laptop. Ok. No sweats. that was a lie. I did sweat a little. And I started an essay on you know, err, blowing one's trumpet? I didn't know I was quite good at it. Making a cross-country such a big deal. Like I was a hero. whatever.

Ran out to print the essay. bought lunch. what else I forgot? oh. right. the application forms. the borang. and it was, like 12 pm. relax. God, I was sweating like a sumo-wrestler (after a fight). and head was still had zero info. Abah was home. Rushed for a bath. Ironed the clothes. Done. went downstairs.

Umi shrieked
"U call that IRONED??!!!"
"Looked so kampung!!"

Yeah.

Never mind. Dear Umi, I love you. Read all the biotechnology thingies in a sweep. God. What Was This? abah called. ran to the car, managed to grab all the sijil and borang and whasoever. Grabbed a pen. A piece of advice. NEVER try to write anything in a car. A moving car, to b specific.

I was mortified.

Head = 0.15% info
oh ok.
1%

my name was called. with the lafaz of basmallah I knocked the door, and entered.

The End

surprise, surprise

the results were out

I wasn't nervous.
hey, seriously.
maybe because i 'sedar diri'. or maybe i was never interested in biotechnology anyway. i mean, i love English, Shakespeare and all, and i didn't think Shakespeare was interested in cells and respirations, or inertia and momentums, nor sodium chloride is actually a salt either.

ps: maybe he was interested, again, pardon me for my ignorance.

But the important thing was, i didn't. seriously. so i checked the jpa website. sorry, 91012011-**-***, you fail!!! Oh. So I... okay, i didnt feel anything. no tears. nothing. just... numb. i didnt care, right?

and i moved on, again.

until i got a letter. an invitation for an interview. under mara. monday. 3.00pm. biotechnology. oh. there must be a mistake. i mean, maybe someone else have the same name and live at the same address. then somebody told me,
"you idiot, cek kat web mara la, bukan jpa. kau kn mntak mara!"

oh. right.
just a goofy mistake.
after all, nobody's perfect.

M for M-A-R-A

one day, umi told me
"apply MARA scholarsip"
i said
"no-no"
she said
"try!"
i said
"but..."
she said
"GO."
so i said,
"yes madam"

the truth is, I was thinking, hey, thousands applied for the same thing. I got 8 A's and a B, and there were like, trillions with 9 A's or 10 A's or 11 A's et cetera et cetera applying for mara or jpa. My chances were like, a bill gate marrying paris hilton ( possible, but unlikely), or my brother marrying siti nurhaliza (which is totally impossible).

but i checked it out anyway.

Medic, engeneering, bla3 all impossible (each requires an A in chemistry). I like english, so i checked the requirements for TESL. (me, a MRSM teacher? kihkihkih)

Here what they wrote

Mendapat sekurang-kurangnya 2 A dalam matapelajaran
a) matematik (OK.pass)
b) BI (no probs)
c) BM (bring it on!)
d) biologi / fizik (yep2)
e) KIMIA / ekonomi.. bla3../ Ert/ bla3..

So in order to be an english teacher, i have to get an A in chemistry. Gosh, which dork created that rule?

so i moved on, brokenhearted. Looked like this B-er in chemistry passed the requirements for biotechnology ( yeah, failed to take Tesl but passed to take err.. this.) , and other strange things ( like jepun kesusasteraan) or whatever. pardon me for my ignorance. looked like if i want a mara scholarship, biotech is one of the options. I mean, actually, it is the only option.

ps: i hate science

biotechnology.
who actually like that?

Saturday, March 1, 2008

Appreciate your sister lohhh..

Bismillah n salam,

Kepada yang mengenali saya, tau la kot saya ni anak tunggal perempuan. Bongsu pulak tu. Selalunya orang akan komen;
1. Mesti anak manja kan?
2. Bestnya kau... ada banyak abang...
3. Wuah.. macam puteri la ni?!

Tapi realiti, selalu berbeza daripada fantasi. Anak manja? Hm, kalau nak bandingkan, rasanya antara semua anak-anak umi ni, sayalah paling banyak sekali kena bebel dengan 'mem besar'. Yalah, kita kan perempuan, buat apa pun mesti sopaaann.. tak macam laki, laki buat salah macam kiut, perempuan kalau kata tak senonoh sikit dah kena jeling maut.

Maybe saya ni memang bukan jenis tak melawan kot.. bukannya apa, nak mati kena dgn abg2? Dari kecil, tak pernah lagi tangan diorang hinggap kat saya. Tangan umi abah ada la.. Yang tak puas hati la, perempuan ni agaknya dah sinonim dengan rajin.. malangnya, saya ni pemalas tahap dewa. Tak cukup dah dengan segala jelingan, bebelan, leteran, nasihat yang diberi, tak pernah insaf.

Kesian juga umi.. Berharap sungguh dia, satu-satunya anak dara dia berperangai senonoh dan sememangnya 'perempuan asli' (bukanlah bermakna saya perempuan celup.. saya perempuan sejati 100% tanpa pembedahan). masa kecil dulu saya lagi teruk, potong rambut pendek macam askar, pantang warna pink, benda2 girlish ni mmg x main la..

Tapi tulah, kadang-kadang saya stres x ingat.. abg2 saya umur jauh dari saya, maknanya kalau nak kata kitorang berkongsi masalah hati sama2, takde punya.. macam dalam tv cerita orang putih, adik beradik pegang tangan, cerita macam2 pujuk bila sorang tu sedih. Nak tunggu macam ni, tunggu kerbau pandai terbang dulu..

Tu yg sedih kot? tiga2 abang tu memang kamcing... baik punyaaa.. tapi saya terkatik kat tepi tak tentu hala. Teringinnya nak ada adik beradik perempuan, boleh kongsi cerita, benda2 alah wanita (ewah..), ni apa pun kena rujuk member.

Tu baru hal kawan, bila bab menjaga rumah ni.. bengang tau.. yalah keluarga saya xlah kaya mana, memang x mengupah orang gaji. kdg2 bila kita baru nak baring kejap
"Turun! Kemas meja!"
atau
"Turun! basuh pinggan!"
atau
"Turun! Masak nasi!"

Mmg small matter, tapi bila kita berpeluh2 dalam dapur, malaun2 tu bergolek dalam bilik tidur dengan nyenyaknya.. lepas tu, habis makan, dorg bergolek pulak depan tv. Masa tu rasa bengang sangat. Sedap lah hidup diorg macam tu.

Tapi, yang sebenar-benarnya, saya tak layak pun nak merungut. Ada sepupu saya, 9 orang adik beradik, dia kena masak semuanya, jaga adik-adik pulak. saya mmg tak reti nak layan kerenah budak2. Entah lah, kadang2 boring betul hidup macam ni (telah disebut yang saya ni sangat PEMALAS). Rasa x sabar nak keluar rumah, hidup sorang2 (kononnya, basuh baju sendiri pun malas), xpayah nak pikir pasal org lain. Tapi, tulah.

Banyak orang hidup lagi teruk. Saya memang tak tahu bersyukur. Asyik pandang orang yang hidup lagi senang. Orang gaji dua tiga orang. Duk kat rumah goyang kaki.

kalau abang2 saya tak ade, maka tak adalah juga blog ni, sbb yg membayar bil internet ni diorag juga. kalau diorg x ada, maka x adalah henpon saya, sbb abg sulung sy yang beli(kalau tunggu umi abah, bila agaknya tu? :p) Dan tanpa diorg, takdela laptop untuk saye curi pakai (komputer besar tu dah lame berasap), n tak adalah ASTRO untuk sy tgk CSI NY (fokus: det don flack yg hensem).

pendek kata, walaupun kdg2 letihnya (yeah.. org PEMALAS mmg cepat letih dan selalunya merasakan diri dia paling banyak buat krja) layan kerja rumah walaupun kadang2 nak tengok cerita CSI NY kt AXN nak tgk Det Don Flack yang hensem tu, atau bengang bila niat nak tengok tv tertunda sbb malaun2 tersebut nak tengok bola.. entah apa yg best pasal bola sebijik tu, saya tetap bersyukur sbb saya masih ada famili, bukan sebatang kara kt dunia.

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